粉红顽皮豹 达浪

原来， 我可以看着你
幸福，而真心祝福你

原来，我并没想像中
坚强， 这都是伪装的

原来，当你心中再也容纳不下我时
我就像被你抛弃的粉红顽皮豹

我会一直想念
当你是我的棉被时
伤心，可以躲在里面哭
之后，在拿去太阳下晒

眼泪一滴一滴地
滑落在我的脸颊

那一片落叶
是我凋零的心

哪怕你不回头
也许你也不回头

我会一直爱你

a pending dream of mine

i have a dream
let juz name it miracle 米拉可

a place where i indulge my interest
hanging my artworks
listening to d music

maybe i can have mini creations
or handmade furniture
to blend in with my lil cafe

how bout own designed clothes
or cute accessories
nice graphic or photo shots

i will paint it in pastel colours
as i love d rainbow so much
not to forget d greenery dat breathes

reading my diary

flip thru d green diary which accompany me for 10 years
a diary of love

when i flip thru d page bout d him and him
i really cant blif dat i actually felt really hurt datime
and finally i managed to get out of dat situation

a camp where v meet each ode
d meteor dat sparks our love, a so called puppy love
it happen so fast dat i cant even hold it for long
and i chose to end it
1st time when i really feeling vy sad and even thought of ending my life
and i was weeping in d playground during mooncake festival of 2005
den i call him and keep on crying

aft a few months...anode him appear in my life

he is like d star dat guiding me out from my past
on new year eve, i lost my hp while count down with him
i was so scared and my mind was blank
he was worried and keep on consoling me
mayb i tot i found my true love...v shared alot of moment together
problems do occur and it came to an end for us
i was really down...tears rolled down on my cheeks everyday
losing my weight due to no appetite...eyes were swollen coz crying avlinite

aft half years...time cure my feeling
dis time...i wun easily fall for anyone
my heart has been frozen for so long

i bcm more and more confident...in life
daring to take risk in any scope...starting to noe wat i want in life
a happy and adventurous gal

until dis month...when my mood is unstable again
dis time...im better den few years ago
at least i wun meet my tears avliday...juz sumtimes
and i stil manage to work...quite stable without showing my emotion
juz when i recif d 1st news bout it...im unstable and cried while eating my dinner in office
aft dat im ok...juz sum song wil remind me of him

i noe i wil b orite
i noe i m ok
i mean i m ok by now

best things happen when u least expected it
live life to d fullest
appreciate my family,frens and avli1 i cheerish in life

leave it to fate

as a girl
i always remind myself
don't easily fell into a relationship

due to what happened in the past
it haunted me till
i left it out years ago

i've been more stable
and in a state of mind
where i peacefully calm myself

but i cant help crying
maybe is the feeling
of not wanting to let go

i should be glad
for that i am still the ordinary girl
who loves and cries and joys

this is life
lets get real

as long as i appreciate the moment we have
i am truly grateful

fate is always there
things which belongs to you
will arrive finally

it just need some time

flashback

today...i received one of the best birthday present of the year
it recalls all my memory wif my frens...5 years...avlione is different
dis photo album sketch book is designed by emily poh leng...one of my best coursemate
and i really miss those time v spent 2geder,all of us going for trip, outing, bbq etc.

after dat i saw a anime video in facebook...bout a father...who work hard to earn a living
for his family...and so...im so touched...til drops of drops rolling down my cheeks
and my mood is flunggg...i can hardly communicate...i feel so down...i can speak to no one

i need to be strong...

echoes of rainbow 岁月神偷

last friday nite
i was watching the making of dis movie
even tho itz an half an hour introduction
but it actually melts my heart

when i looked at father lo's eyes
i can feel d sadness he felt datime
tears immediately rolled down on my cheeks
the feeling of going to lose someone important

what makes my heart drop is when
d mother lo's touches father lo's finger
to find out dat his wedding ring isnt there
anymore

he sacrificed d ring to save his son
who needs blood donation
nothing worth more important than d son

as d lines flow

Softly sighs the Rainbow
Misty songs of old
Flowing by the skyline
My secret lullaby

Softly sighs the rainbow
Stories seldom told
Flowing by the skyline
My love songs that never rhyme

I...
Stand alone by my secret rainbow
Ah...
My secret rainbow

dun take things for granted

there isnt anything dat belong to us in dis world
v come here with nothing
n not bringing anything when v're dead
so, dont b greedy

leave avlithing here, it belongs to d world

unclear

in a state of mind
where my interaction is screwed up
maybe i am too proud to bend over

in a hot tempered body
all the things are heated up in the pan
maybe i should release it in another way

need to be stronger

i understand myself
i don't worth it for anyone to love
none will do anything just to make me feel happy

i am a self conscious girl
i know that i will need myself to love
a great opportunity to train me into a independent person

i always believe that
action speaks louder than words
if only every words are to be turned into reality

maybe none is really into me
maybe i don't really have the sparkle
maybe i have yet to meet the right one

i like people who are honored with their words
i like people who logically did things for the others
i like people who are optimistic, loving and confident

but when it comes to heart
there is a cliche that connects two souls
all the characters mentioned aren't in that certain soul

if you love him enough...it doesn't matter
but if you aint...you'll use the requirements above to turn down
nothing is fair in this world...we're all here to return what we've taken in the pas

tearing

itz d time again
dat remind me not 2b emotionally 2wards sumone
coz it doesnt worth my tears

i shud changed since years ago
how come im still d same
mayb itz my time 2totally cut off

im still crying...no one noes
im in pieces......no one noes
im stil d gal.......who cries and laughs her heart out

travel to d past

i'v just used to it since d las incident
but when i listen to a song or movie
dat reminds me of d past
tears wil start drooling like a river

it happened
im glad dat i cried for d moment v had b4
not bcoz i stil had feelings for you
but d things v shared so much

for d nite v spent at star gazing
for d meteor v've seen together
for d 1st kiss u gave me when i cried
for d time u'r worried bcoz im angry

i wish happiness has lies within you guys
and me
leaving d past in peace is eventually d best way i survived
i hv my new life n itz wonderfully crafted in my heart

请爱惜缺陷美

每个人都希望得到幸福。
然而，幸福对于每个人来说是何定义？
缺陷美的人，难道就没有追求幸福的资格吗？
每当我看到某些情况时，心都不禁地酸了。
虽然，我也是个追求完美的人，
但，我是对于自己而做出的追求，
可不是对外面的世界而产生的。
如果每个人，事，物都非常完美，
那我不就如同活在电脑荧幕里的角色。
每个人都长得一般的完美，
这是多么的不幸，
只因少了那股稀有的特质。

有时候单纯的细想，
或者傻傻的面对人生，
反而是最佳的选择



看了几部戏所得到的感想
包括了：韩剧花样男子，台剧恶作剧之吻，港剧家好月圆

complicated thoughts

i thought that i've fallen again
but i aint
i thought that i've rose again
but i didnt

i might be getting angry
just hope that i wont
i might be getting jealous
just know that i cant

because i am nothing to you
and you are something to me

because i am a friend to you
and you are a someone to me

indulgence in quality life

for the past first four years
i've been living with my family and playing with neighbours

for the past second five years
i've been enjoying my kindergarten and primary school years

for the past third eight years
i've been studying very hard to gain good results in examination

for the past fourth three years
i've been following my dreams to walk the path that inspiring me

i feel very grateful
because i have the courage to choose what i want

i feel very independent
because i am not afraid to be different from others

i feel very lucky
because i love what i am doing from my heart

i changed... not to be the 'book worms'
to join loads of activities in school
become more interactive with strangers
dare to try new things that catch my attention
changes that make me grow up

happy birthday

clock is ticking
time is running

june has yet to end
birthday has yet to come

thanks mum and dad who raised me
grateful for everything that i own now

lucky to have friends and family who supported me
i would like to take a bow for all

happy birthday to all my families and friends
and happy birthday to me

gift

gift...someone call it present
it is the now that we are having

gift...no one call it past
it was the then that we went through

gift...some prefers expensive
those are the diamonds, gold and luxuries

gift...some prefers ordinary
those are the cards, cakes, little gifts

gift...i prefer the unique one
handmade, cute, favorites stuff

maybe a hug, kiss or just a photo that makes me smile

childhood to adolescent favourites

still remember when i was a kid, i used to watch a lot of cartoons and kid's movies
my fav are marry poppin and the sound of music, casted by Julie Andrews
after i watched the movies, i always get myself in the english dress with a ribbon tied behind
and pretend that i live in the movie world

my dad always rent the laser disc from the shop nearby my house, it cost rm5/disc
those that caught my attention were thumbelina, peter pan, beauty and the beast, 101 dalmations, lion king, aladdin, pinocchio, snow white and the seven dwarfs, cinderella, jungle book, pocahontas, hunchback of notre dame, hercules, mulan, tarzan, heavens for dog and so on...
fantastic and exciting

then came the vcd technology, my dad bought over hundreds of cartoons and kid's movies include one of my favourite anatasia
i can't believe i cried for the obstacles that she went through
a few i still remember, lilo and stitch, princess diary, freaky friday, enchanted, chronicles of narnia, harry potter, high school musical, bridge to terabithia
.

where is the one ?

why are people engaging in a relationship?
part of the reasons are :
a person to share their life with
a companion to do things together
a mate to accompany them when feeling lonely
a close-knit who cares for their life and so on
of course, there are some people who are playing around, fooling love, overcome 'face' problem when seeing couples, satisfy lust....so as the list goes
a good relationship requires all the good factors to contribute in and vice versa

so have you meet the one?
if yes, congrats to you and appreciate
if no, do love yourself first, get ready, and when the right person reach your doorstep, knock on you, just say : i am ready!

process in life

as the world getting more advance, so do the human beings
they tend to pursuit the physical demand in life, some even forget about the heart that burried inside the body

since when the little baby only gets to see their parents once a week
and the maid has become a person the children depends on everytime
the teens will receive an amount of pocket money from their parents whom are always busy
adolescent who always came home in the late night and spend their hours facing the computer
and then came the long hours at the office when they are working, left the elderly waiting at home
when the parents are getting old, they sent them to the oldies home
finally after the parents passed away, they will files a law suit against the division of property among families

sounds familiar?
these acts are 'recyclable' and it wouldn't end until a change has taken place among us
do you want to be part of this process in life?
please hold on and feel the world around us

thoughts to be embossed

what shall i say, i have millions of thoughts running through my mind every second but i can only mentioned a few that i remembered.

this is going to be an adventurous year for me as i am going to travel to the Pearl of the Orient - Penang, all by myself, walking every mile stone under the sun or rain, as long as i can see the cloudy sky, chirping birds and colorful flowers.


i have booked my flights, researched on Penang's cultures & heritages hot spot, and eagerly waiting upon the day to come, this might sound a little crazy especially for a 22 year-old oriental city girl who is just about to climb the ladder of her life.

not everyone will have the courage to walk the path that i chosen. i left my job at the city, heading towards north to visit my grandma, a person whom i haven't take care of in my entire life.

i will be staying at there for 21 days which carries a meaning, 1 day = 1 year. i will take care for her as i don't want to have any regret in my life. that is my main objective of traveling there, to give my love to her.

believing that i will gain much experience in my journey to the east meets west heritage town, i will surely come back to my lovely home with rich heritage knowledge of Penang.

stepping into an eclectic style building, oriental temples or even the dazzling sandy beaches, greenery mountains, an island full of food, peoples and places to visit, all these gonna be exciting.

letz do the counting...60 days to go...yeahhh